Well, when is next???
Normally, I don't rant but this time, I will break my rule. What do we know? We know we are an early LID for May (May 6). What else do we know? That our agency has pretty much confirmed that we will not be getting our referral in January. They are still working on the travel authorizations for the previous referrals and they won't work on another batch until the TAs for the previous group are complete. This is not the best news and definately not what we wanted to hear. With the CNY starting on the 29th of Jan, we can pretty much look for a late Feb/early March referral. And then, with a referral that late, we have the high likely hood of having the April trade show impact our travel. Just when you feel that you are on the upswing, it seems like yet another road block or slow down is thrown in front of you. I find myself wondering - is it possible to be pregnant for 15 months? God knows, when we started this process in October of 2004, I thought of myself as pregnant. While not in the phyisical sense, definately in the emotional sense. My child was there and my attachement to her was growing everyday in my heart. Now, I find myself anything but excited about my child and tired of everyone saying silly things like "well, not much you can do about it" or "your child is just not ready" or "in God's time". These sayings really don't do much to improve my mood or provide any bit of encouragement. You know, just say - "I'm sorry it sucks. We are here for you" and call it a day! If you asked my when I started this process if this was easier than fertility treatments, I would have said yes. I think I will recant that. This is worse by a long stretch!
Until we have more positive news we will just keep holding on to our red thread and burn our candle in our window until our little girl comes home.
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